I make a point to visit my great Physician at the chapel in school right before all my classes start. I let Him check my heart on a daily basis. Missing a trip to the Doctor is not an option. I sense the drawbacks of not going to Him as the long day progresses. Not good for me to skip.
If you read my blog, you would know that I don't wake up to very nice mornings. It's been well over a month and my palpitations haven't stopped yet. I can't say I'm not doing better, though. I'm actually doing very well despite my mornings. My palpitations aren't as bad anymore. There's the occasional heartburn but I'm making very good progress.
It's all because I confide in my great Doctor. Every morning, I pull the large wooden door of the chapel open and take my usual seat at the back. I take a deep a deep breath, make the sign of the cross, and mentally tap God and say, "Hey, good morning! I'm here again for my check-up."
Then I proceed telling Him my feelings and thoughts:
"My morning is pretty crappy. Why does it have to be like this? My heart beat faster than a helicopter's wings this morning."
"I'm so sleepy today! My heart feels better, though."
"I feel horrible today. It's so heavy I can't stand it. When's this gonna end? You know what I think? That...."
"I know you're healing me right now. Change my bandages, please?"
"Today feels like a good day! Can't it be like this everyday?"
And that's my daily routine. A good 15-20 minutes in there makes all the difference in my day.
And after I expel all fury, anxiety, and depression in my body, I end by saying my thanks, do the sign of the cross, sling my bag on my shoulder, and leave.
But before I push the door open, I turn around to face the cross and say,
"When I get out of this door, all the bad things will stay here and I will not think about them the entire day. I choose happiness today."
And the Lord takes my burdens away without question and I leave the chapel like I've woken up the second time. This time, light and positive. Without the heart problems.
~ What am I trying to say? Surrender. Surrender your burdens wholeheartedly and allow happiness to embrace you. :)
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I ate at Yaki Mix today with my family to celebrate my parents' 19th anniversary. Because I ate so much, I looked preggers after how many plates of Japanese everything. I hope I don't die of bangungot tonight or something. :))
What caught my eye at the restaurant was the manager who paced around the entire restaurant, making sure that all the customer's were happy. He was doing the same tasks the waiters were doing --- happily taking away dirty plates, lighting the stoves, and refilling glasses of iced tea.
The only difference between him and the waiters was that he was wearing long sleeves, a tie, and black slacks while the waiters wore their brown uniforms.
And I admired him that. We need more leaders like that-- who work with their subordinates rather than make them do the work, who exemplify humility and become good role models.
I wish I had affirmed him then. I was too preoccupied watching my sister finish cooking the fresh shrimps on the hotplate. :))
~*~
I just want to plug that my littlest sister is growing cuter and more beautiful each day. Her smile is a painkiller for my heart. She is my miracle and blessing. I love her so much. :)
If you read my blog, you would know that I don't wake up to very nice mornings. It's been well over a month and my palpitations haven't stopped yet. I can't say I'm not doing better, though. I'm actually doing very well despite my mornings. My palpitations aren't as bad anymore. There's the occasional heartburn but I'm making very good progress.
It's all because I confide in my great Doctor. Every morning, I pull the large wooden door of the chapel open and take my usual seat at the back. I take a deep a deep breath, make the sign of the cross, and mentally tap God and say, "Hey, good morning! I'm here again for my check-up."
Then I proceed telling Him my feelings and thoughts:
"My morning is pretty crappy. Why does it have to be like this? My heart beat faster than a helicopter's wings this morning."
"I'm so sleepy today! My heart feels better, though."
"I feel horrible today. It's so heavy I can't stand it. When's this gonna end? You know what I think? That...."
"I know you're healing me right now. Change my bandages, please?"
"Today feels like a good day! Can't it be like this everyday?"
And that's my daily routine. A good 15-20 minutes in there makes all the difference in my day.
And after I expel all fury, anxiety, and depression in my body, I end by saying my thanks, do the sign of the cross, sling my bag on my shoulder, and leave.
But before I push the door open, I turn around to face the cross and say,
"When I get out of this door, all the bad things will stay here and I will not think about them the entire day. I choose happiness today."
And the Lord takes my burdens away without question and I leave the chapel like I've woken up the second time. This time, light and positive. Without the heart problems.
~ What am I trying to say? Surrender. Surrender your burdens wholeheartedly and allow happiness to embrace you. :)
~*~
I ate at Yaki Mix today with my family to celebrate my parents' 19th anniversary. Because I ate so much, I looked preggers after how many plates of Japanese everything. I hope I don't die of bangungot tonight or something. :))
What caught my eye at the restaurant was the manager who paced around the entire restaurant, making sure that all the customer's were happy. He was doing the same tasks the waiters were doing --- happily taking away dirty plates, lighting the stoves, and refilling glasses of iced tea.
The only difference between him and the waiters was that he was wearing long sleeves, a tie, and black slacks while the waiters wore their brown uniforms.
And I admired him that. We need more leaders like that-- who work with their subordinates rather than make them do the work, who exemplify humility and become good role models.
I wish I had affirmed him then. I was too preoccupied watching my sister finish cooking the fresh shrimps on the hotplate. :))
~*~
I just want to plug that my littlest sister is growing cuter and more beautiful each day. Her smile is a painkiller for my heart. She is my miracle and blessing. I love her so much. :)
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